Adam Khoo taught us a lot . He wanted us to keep in mind a thing which can keep us motivate for the rest of the 6 - 7 months . I've been finding that special ass . Recently , i found it .

Friends , honestly , will not always be there for you . I saw it a few days back , right before my eyes , and it's so freaking clear . These few days uh , i keep brainwashing myself , it's okay to be selfish to achieve what you want - like what AK said . Success is associated to sacrifices . So friends are nothing at all ? Of course not . I need them , badly , always . [:

Ha . It's so scary for my to say all these . Oh , I love my friends . Srsly speaking .

That time when i was in sec 2 , a good friend told me something unexpected of her , so i had these similar-thoughts , but then , i told myself that i must be crazy to think that way . I'm afraid of myself , literally - like now . I thought friends would always be my everything , but it turns out , i'm the dumb one .

Not trying to be mad or whatsoever . (: Nothing happened . No argument , no fights . Just that a few not-so-obvious-conflicts occurred & i'm just trying to express what the hell i'm thinking .

Yeah , i keep telling myself that it's okay . If my friends are like that , i don't have to follow . They give me attitude , I'd accept . That person give me fckup attitude , i'd just walk away . At times , i really reward the person with my cb face . Then , i wondered why it happened , how long will it drag on if i ignore it & how to prevent such things to happen again . But , it starts to happen like so many times . And i'm super tired of finding ways to make that person happy , though i feel so upset in me . I really want to just keep my mouth shut and not talk to anyone , not reply anyone , not answering anyone , just one fine day - i thought that day would come . But it never .

Yes . We're having some problems , some weird situations i thought will never happen . My friend doesn't really see it as a problem . But if i continue treating like nothing happened , i'm really stupid . So , i've decided . If that person wants to carry on like that , i'll join in . You can't possibly be the one who's creating the trouble between us and i have to be the one who ended up entertaining you right ? I'm sure , and absolutely , hundred percent , guarantee , believe that i can give him / her / them attitudes that are way better than the whosoever . (: You gave me the fuel .

And , since we tried to resolve it so many times . Or maybe i shld say , since i've tried to ignore it so many times but it takes no effect :) , then why not we continue be friends and on the other hand , we fight all we can ? Looks good on the appearance , and stabbing each other behind the back ? No la . LOL .

I need / I'll use you as a motivation . You want to be the winner . Tell you what , now i want it too . Thanks .

In the end , i'm still going to tell you 'I love you' , friend . (:

But , no matter what you treat me as , i won't care anymore .

Sometimes , being selfish is a good thing , right ? I saw it in a different perspective now . Be it a good thing or not , i'll sort it out myself . I don't need any comment .

Choosing to do things which benefit you most , is thousand times better than choosing some of your friends , who you know THEY will not cherish the friendship .

Maybe , my interpretation is wrong . Maybe not .

Kay . It's all out now . My thoughts . Clear ? There's more .___. . But i'm tired . Lol .

Last thing ; If you've tried on a particular dress you liked a lot , but it doesn't fit you , why not put it down and try on others ? You might see a better one ahead .

That's my advice .

Goodnights . (;